I feel caged in by fear and inertia. I look out and my freedom is covered in ice.
I read a blog every day by a woman I consider a friend, She did this on her blog A Rural Journal, today and I borrowed the idea. I hope you don’t mind Nancy. .
Outside: a winter blizzard
Pondering: people raising their children on their blogs and in social media
Looking Forward To: my medication getting organized so I can restart my recovery
Fixating On: eating: too, much and too often
What I Need To Remember: set a schedule and do one thing at a time ~ be patient
My Current Project: trying to put the house back together after the Holiday
Hoping For: safe travels for those who have to be out in this
Watching: The Mentalist and Leverage
Dinner Last Night: odds and ends, with peanut butter
What made me frown/upset/laugh/smile/think today: a post by Karen Maezen Miller
Grateful for: a family who cares and tried to understand
At brunch with a dear friend we sat beside my ex’s ex. I still think about him frequently, sentimentally, sadly. I was surprised how much I wanted to interrupt her and ask her a million questions about him. I was so relieved when I didn’t.
I watched a movie today and shut the door to the creative part of my brain. All we are left with is this.
For over 16 years I dated younger men and kept by stomach pulled in at all costs. Then I stopped. Did I look different? Yes, of course. Did I feel different? Oh most definitely!
The snowing sky started turning the colors and although I looked through white, I saw only gray
I ask her gently every day if I can help but her fierceness, like an Arctic wind, blows back nearly grounding me.
small stones like words worth repeating are sometimes hard to find
the skif of snow melting from the warmth of the sun off the frozen puddles reminds me of how quick things change
my eyes were blurred today upon waking, crying in dreams about those who have passed on or away, necessary perhaps to embrace the present?