I feel caged in by fear and inertia. I look out and my freedom is covered in ice.
January 10, 2013
I read a blog every day by a woman I consider a friend, She did this on her blog A Rural Journal, today and I borrowed the idea. I hope you don’t mind Nancy.
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Outside: a winter blizzard
Pondering: people raising their children on their blogs and in social media
Looking Forward To: my medication getting organized so I can restart my recovery
Fixating On: eating: too, much and too often
What I Need To Remember: set a schedule and do one thing at a time ~ be patient
My Current Project: trying to put the house back together after the Holiday
Hoping For: safe travels for those who have to be out in this
Watching: The Mentalist and Leverage
Dinner Last Night: odds and ends, with peanut butter
What made me frown/upset/laugh/smile/think today: a post by Karen Maezen Miller
Grateful for: a family who cares and tried to understand
Small Stones ~ 01 08 13
At brunch with a dear friend we sat beside my ex’s ex. I still think about him frequently, sentimentally, sadly. I was surprised how much I wanted to interrupt her and ask her a million questions about him. I was so relieved when I didn’t.
Small Stones ~ 01 07 13
I watched a movie today and shut the door to the creative part of my brain. All we are left with is this.
Small Stones ~ 01 06 13
For over 16 years I dated younger men and kept by stomach pulled in at all costs. Then I stopped. Did I look different? Yes, of course. Did I feel different? Oh most definitely!
Small Stones ~ 01 05 13
The snowing sky started turning the colors and although I looked through white, I saw only gray
Small Stones ~ 01 04 13
I ask her gently every day if I can help but her fierceness, like an Arctic wind, blows back nearly grounding me.
Small Stones ~ 01 03 13
Small Stones ~ 01-02-13
the skif of snow melting from the warmth of the sun off the frozen puddles reminds me of how quick things change
Small Stones ~ 01 01 13
my eyes were blurred today upon waking, crying in dreams about those who have passed on or away, necessary perhaps to embrace the present?


